October 23, 2012 § Leave a comment
When I get too tired from worrying about idols, about their psychological and physiological health, about their love lives, about how they feel about what they do, about their economy, about their integrity, about the “race” dynamics between my (Caucasian) way of looking and theirs, about their attitude towards gender and sexuality, about their body image and their views on other bodies than their own, about what would happen if I actually met them, about what will happen if I never meet them, about their view on fans, about their popularity; in short, about idols in general, I sometimes really miss the days when I was just a bored, sad fifteen-year old virgin fangirl with idle hands and a huge obsession with Harry Potter.
No real people. None of the never-ending grown-up reflections that block my way today. Just me and my fiction, fanon and canon.
The following conversation just happened:
Me: Sometimes I wish being a fifteen-year old Harry Potter obsessed. It was so much less complicated.
Lars: You can never have that back.
Me: No. Never.
Footnote: BUT I WOULD NEVER EVER GO BACK IN TIME. NEVER. EVER. WOULD I GO BACK THERE AGAIN. NEVER. Because it sucked. But I can still romanticize it afterwards.
January 19, 2012 § Leave a comment
Editorial chat of this afternoon after the recover of a computer:
L: OK so where is the computer
T: just got it back!
L: WHAT ARE THE TWO OF YOU DOING? I’M DYING OVER THIS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72OxCB7vjoo&feature=player_embedded
T: THE BEST PART IS THAT WATCHING THAT VIDEO IS EXACTLY WHAT WE WERE DOING
T: Yes. What are your favorite moments of that video? Mine are 0:22 and 0:33
L: Mine are 0:39-0:42. And 0:14.
T: Those are good moments.
This is just the way we work.
Key- the man of kpop dreams. ♥
August 15, 2011 § 4 Comments
About Key, hopes, and sexual orientation issues
So. We don’t just write a k-pop blog, we also have other interests in common and have become real-life friends who speak regularly. We talk about most kinds of things, but a lot of the time, we talk about k-pop issues – especially those we both think a lot about. Such as Kim Kibum, aka Key, of Shinee. And the other day this conversation turned out, in our opinion, nicely enough to (after cleaning it up a bit and translating it from Swedish to English) share it.
TFII: When will Key start recording tv-series? I spoke to Johanna earlier but then she went off to watch Jaejoong in “Protect the Boss”. It’s so unfair.
Mis: Yes, Key in a drama! Plz! Can he get to play a bitchy fashion magazine intern? Or something.
TFII: I’m just afraid that he can’t act at all. But yeah, exactly. He could play himself.
Mis: Or someone’s fragile son.
TFII: Oh. Yeah, all tuned down.
Mis: But no, I don’t think he’s made for acting, either.
TFII: What if he wins an award and gets to go to Sweden?
Mis: *claps hands in front of computer*
TFII: Wait, gets to go to Sweden? Haha… Why would he go here? To work with von Trier!?! Yes!
Mis: God, YES. Dying. That could totally happen. *wishful thinking*
TFII: Haha. Hey, this escalating Key-ism…
Mis: I know. Don’t know if I should feel like ಠ_ಠ or like ಥ⌣ಥ
TFII: Was it you or Johanna who watched clips of him speaking English today?
Mis: It wasn’t me. Hehe. Wait, somewhere on my computer I’ve got the perfect gif for this moment:
TFII: She likes him too, everybody seem to do so now. Kind of obvious, though, no matter which group it is, people are desperately catching at any ambiguous straw possible.
Mis: Yeah. I know. Everytime I google something Key-related, “shinee key gay” shows up as a suggested search and it just annoys me. I wish I didn’t care about the whole sexual orientation issue, but I do, even though I keep telling myself that it doesn’t matter to me.
TFII: Yeah, I know. Same here. It’s almost annoying. Or I mean, it is annoying.
Mis: Because 1) I should only care about people’s sexual orientation when it is of practical consequence to my love life, which unfortunately isn’t the case with, say, Key’s, and 2) Even if it had been a practical issue, it’s not like I haven’t overridden people’s love preferences before HEHEHE
TFII: I wish I didn’t care.
Mis: Me too. BUT I DO. AND I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I’M HOPING FOR.
TFII: ME NEITHER.
TFII: YOU ARE LIKE A MIRROR OF MY BRAIN.
Mis: SHOULD WE LAUGH OR CRY? I’M JUST SO HAPPY THAT YOU UNDERSTAND ME.
TFII: I DON’T KNOW. BUT YES.
TFII: The last couple of weeks, I’ve been thinking that I should write something about Key, because I rarely do. Maybe I’m a bit afraid to.
Mis: Why is that?
TFII: I don’t know. He really has become sort of like the symbol of all this. And he’s so young, and I don’t know… sometimes I wonder if I’m crazy thinking so much about a nine year younger Korean idol.
Mis: We are probably both a bit crazy, but what the hell. There are worse kinds of crazy than this.
TFII: Aim for this autumn: Removing nothing from my life, just add what’s missing.
Mis: Good aim.
/Both of us